wow! Today went pretty good i guess. I woke up and got ready and went to PB, to my nannys and gmas doctor appts and then went to wal mart, stupid guy wanted to hook up with me and get my number and he was like "nobody has to know" and i was like NO!!!!!! And then i walked off... It made me mad. Well I bought healthy stuff today and tomorrow is when i get strict about my diet! I am gonna start consuming only a total of 560 calories each day and i am going to exercise and then i should be able to lose weight... I am so excited about losing weight! I want to sooo bad! I hope that i get to! I love and miss Josh so much! I havent talked to him yet but i should ba able to talk to him in about 20 or 30 minutes from now, and that should make me really happy! I am so ready for wednesday to get here! It will be mine and Joshs 9 months! Yay! This is seriously the BEST realtionship i have ever been in my life! I know that he is the one!!! 
* I love Josh Ercanbrack*

Well today went good i guess. At first I had to wake up at like 9 a.m. and then rush to take me a shower and get ready to leave to go to eat pizza at Mikes Place with all the seniors. It kinda sucked. We waited forever on the pizza and the breadsticks were cold... ( I shoulda never ate it) and then on top of that i drank like 4 diet cokes. Woo Hoo. And later on I had to go to graduation practice which was so very boring. It was super hot in the gym and the pronciple and the librarian gave a super long speech on how we should line up. It was BORING! Well after that I headed home and txtd my Josh ( which is my boyfriend and future husband) Me, and Josh have been together for almost 9 months. By far this is the most serious, and most commited relationship i have ever been in! Well It will be 9 months on the 21st! I am so excited! Well he is sweet! he came over and ate dinner with me.. Then my aunt showed up and presented me with a HUGE graduation cake which was a suprise! ( I love cakes and stuff) but i knew that i shouldnt eat as much because i would have to work alot harder later on to burn that off! Its sooo complicating to lose weight! Well after we ate .. me and Josh spend wonderful bonding time together like we always do.. Its amazing to just sit there or whatever and just stare in his eyes. It makes me feel as if i have no worries and it takes my mind off things .. I love him.. He is the one person i want in my life forever. i have been in alot of relationships and they haven't been good. The losers in the past have always cheated on me or used me. So therefore i have trust issues. But for once in my life i trust my Josh. He is a trustworthy person and i tell everything to him. i don't know what i would do if i lost him...  But i am serious about this whole weight loss thing. I have got to throw down on this .. I hate to exercise. Its horrible. The thought of getting sweaty makes me sick. But i know that i am gonna have to put commitment in order for me to drop the pounds... I hope that tomorrow goes good and i am so ready for Friday so i can spend alone time with my Josh. It will be fun and exciting .. Just what i need to survive lol. 
* I love Josh Ercanbrack *